Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Day 5: When you were a child, how did you imagine your adult self?
I cant even remember because I never took my future seriously and honestly didn't care

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Day 4: Describe your best childhood friend and your relationship with this person.
This is a really weird one for me because I always think of one person when I think of who my best friend was but then I have to ask myself if I would consider it my "childhood" best friend? In elementary school I had a best friend who constantly made fun of me and we were always competing with each other. I think that relationship was stupid and I ended up getting into a fist fight with her at some point. In jr. high I completely stopped talking to her and transitioned into a different group of girls that ended up all hating each other and one of those girls and I became very close and stayed close until I was around 18ish.

Monday, January 26, 2015

Day 3: What's something that helped to shape your outlook to life?
I started to think about negative old friends/ but after really thinking about it I think a good answer would be feminism. Feminism has helped me constantly question why I do the thing I do, helped me question if I am loving and responsible. It keeps me in check.

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Day 2: Who is someone you've lost? What are some of your memories about that person?
Immediately I thought of my ex best friend. Some of the most valuable memories with her take place in her childhood home and I reflect on those memories frequently. Nothing is particularly special about those memories, just the comfortable feeling I had with her. A specific memory would be a show we went together in Sacramento. That show transformed and shaped my life into what it is now and I couldn't honestly imagine anyone else experiencing that with me.
I am so sad that I will never be able to show the people I love how much I love them. I will never be able to compensate for the things they have done for me. I will never be able to honor them and show them how much I care for them.

Saturday, January 24, 2015

I'm going to do a 30 day journal challenge for this blog and the theme being "memories".

Day 1: What's something you were afraid of as a child?
Falling into an empty pit/hole or falling into void of black. The ground in front of me crumbling and I just fall into nothingness. This is still a fear of mine and I still have dreams about it.